Seasons

I always feel the change in seasons. Not just the temperature changes, but my emotional changes. I used to hate this time of year. Things felt so unstable and uncertain for me. Over the years I have learned to be okay with the insecurity that I felt during this time of year. Why insecurity? Well, every since I was a child I've had major life changes to occur during this time of year. I hated the start of a school year because it meant that I had to be away from my mom, my rock, my security. My parents argued and fought (physically) a lot and I never knew how life was going to be when I returned home. I wanted my mom safe physically and I didn't want to leave her side. Things were volatile! There were other changes that I don't even remember anymore...but that feeling stuck with me. It has definitely gotten better! My daughter's birth and the time I took off following her birth helped tremendously. My focus changed...it reoriented me. I am so blessed to have her.

Today I felt a little out of sorts, like I needed to be grounded and anchored to something. My mom is gone and would normally turn to her to help ground and center me. I decided to do for my daughter what I felt I needed and, in turn, do it for myself. I decided to decorate our home for the season. I want to create memories for my daughter similar to the ones I cherish of my mom today. The time with my mom was precious. I miss her dearly.

This seasonal shift forces me to shift gears emotionally. I go inward and remember that my source is still near and close. I just have to recognize it, remember it since I am the one who usually turns away and not the Sun.

The Nobel Peace Prize 2009 - Press Release

The Nobel Peace Prize 2009 - Press Release: "The Nobel Peace Prize for 2009

The Norwegian Nobel Committee has decided that the Nobel Peace Prize for 2009 is to be awarded to President Barack Obama for his extraordinary efforts to strengthen international diplomacy and cooperation between peoples. The Committee has attached special importance to Obama's vision of and work for a world without nuclear weapons."

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Where has the time gone?

I don't know, but I do know that it's time for me to start blogging again. I have so much to say. I have so much to purge myself of. I don't care who listens, reads, or responds. This is for me. It's time again.

It's cathartic to release what's inside. I need it. I've got to let it out and in some instances, let it go!

MichaelMoore.com : Former exec: Insurers fomenting town hall chaos

MichaelMoore.com : Former exec: Insurers fomenting town hall chaos: "A former health insurance executive says the disruptions taking place at lawmakers' town halls around the country are the result of stealth efforts by health insurance companies.

Wendell Potter, a former CIGNA vice president, detailed what he said were past covert efforts by the industry. Though he said he does not have specifics for what is occurring now, because he's been out of the business for a year, it follows the same pattern.

'The industry is up to the same dirty tricks this year,' Potter said at a Capitol news conference after meeting with House Rules Committee Chairwoman Louise Slaughter (D-N.Y.), an avid supporter of the Democrats' plans for a healthcare overhaul."

Figuring it out

There is more to life than the mundane everyday habits and practices that have become our default lives. There is more than the routines of getting up at blank to be at blank by blank so that we can blank... and all the while we try to disconnect from it all because we say that this isn't our life, but it is our lives and we can't blank it out with a blink of an eye because some part of us was there. If not in mind, then in body. And what happens when we keep not being fully present? Is it possible that I can enjoy what I'm doing while I'm doing it? But I don't even like it... And then I say "well, it's a pay check." And other people do things just for the money, but I don't want to be what I called them.

Early Voting

I voted early today. I didn't expect to vote today, but decided to stop by the place where I thought the early voting was taking place. People were wrapped around the building so I figure that was the place.

I voted!!!!! I'm happy that I got it over with. I will probably vote early in every election after this!!!!!

Political Pulse | The Associated Press-Yahoo! News Poll on Yahoo! News

Political Pulse | The Associated Press-Yahoo! News Poll on Yahoo! News: "WASHINGTON (AP) — Deep-seated racial misgivings could cost Barack Obama the White House if the election is close, according to an AP-Yahoo News poll that found one-third of white Democrats harbor negative views toward blacks — many calling them 'lazy,' 'violent,' responsible for their own troubles.

The poll, conducted with Stanford University, suggests that the percentage of voters who may turn away from Obama because of his race could easily be larger than the final difference between the candidates in 2004 — about two and one-half percentage points."

Alaskans Speak (In A Frightened Whisper): Palin Is “Racist, Sexist, Vindictive, And Mean.” | The LA Progressive

Alaskans Speak (In A Frightened Whisper): Palin Is “Racist, Sexist, Vindictive, And Mean.” | The LA Progressive: "“So Sambo beat the bitch!”

This is how Republican Vice Presidential nominee Sarah Palin described Barack Obama’s win over Hillary Clinton to political colleagues in a restaurant a few days after Obama locked up the Democratic Party presidential nomination."

Jon Stewart Hits Karl Rove, Bill O'Reilly, Dick Morris On Sarah Palin Hypocrisy

Jon Stewart Hits Karl Rove, Bill O'Reilly, Dick Morris On Sarah Palin Hypocrisy: "Wednesday night on 'The Daily Show,' Jon Stewart hit Karl Rove and Bill O'Reilly with damning evidence of their hypocrisy regarding Vice Presidential nominee Sarah Palin.

While Rove recently praised Palin's experience as the mayor of Wasilla, Alaska, Stewart showed video of Rove trashing Virginia Governor — and former Richmond Mayor — Tim Kaine's executive experience, listing all the cities that are bigger than Richmond and calling such a pick 'political.'"

John Ridley: The Guide to the Conservative Palinguage Vol.2 -- the People's Edition

John Ridley: The Guide to the Conservative Palinguage Vol.2 -- the People's Edition: "If you give your wife a dap on stage, it's actually a 'terrorist fist jab.' If your daughter licks her palm so that she can slick down your youngest child's hair on national TV it's an 'adorable moment.' (Seriously, forget about abstinence only, teach these folks some grooming skills)."